Hardest Question

This is not my original. This is from my friend Cze, I love the way this was written. Just edited some parts. As simple as it is, it is an expression of one's feelings and that being asked by someone why he is being loved... there are just no exact words to answer that. Why he is being singled out from the rest. "Why do you love me?" is one of the most hardest questions that has no definitive answer. Loving someone is like looking at a multitude of stars.. try gazing at just one star..all the others will just fade away. Read on...

Why do I love you and not him, and him, and another him? Well, I can’t bring myself to love them; I can’t bring myself to even try. I had experiences with other hims and what I have with you now is simply different. Way different.

Why do I love you? Loving you has no reasons. I just simply do. And that’s just one difference between loving you and loving them hims: loving them has to have reasons because otherwise there’s no point in loving them at all.

I love you not because you love me back. There are others who love me, others who would be willing to love me, others who would care for me. But I don’t need them—it’s you I need. Your warmth, understanding, acceptance, affection, beauty, temperament, mood swings, and flaws—I need all that. I need you.

It is only when I’m with you that I am most secure and comfortable. I can be anyone and anything when I’m with you. You accept the whole of me and you understand my shortcomings. Whether I succeed or fail, I know you’ll be beside me.

You let me grow as a person. I tend to let my world revolve around you and only you sometimes, as if there’s no one else in this world but the two of us. You know that this isn’t healthy and that we have to have space for personal growth and time for ourselves. A stable relationship calls for stable individuals; and for our relationship to blossom and last for a long time, we both have to continue to develop and to mature together and individually.

Most importantly, while we are lovers, we are also best friends. After a tiring day, it would be nice to just talk to you—telling anecdotes, exchanging views, catching up on the going ons of each other’s lives. When all is said and done, you are not only my best friend, you are also my shock-absorber, my angel, my teddybear, my adviser, my inspiration, my motivation—my everything.

So understand that there are no reasons why I love you. I just do.