My internship as a Physical Therapy student is one of the best chapters of my life that I would want to come back and flip its pages again. For ten months of being an intern, aside from learning the ropes in the clinical setting, I had the chance to discover who I really am and how I can make "pakisama" to other people. Since there is always a designated house where we should stay, I got the chance to meet interns from other schools and we became (the first ever Big Brother hehe) housemates. We assign who will do this and that, we do the laundry together, we talk about our lives, share our frustrations, get drunk, play tong-its till the wee hours of the morning, fight (I watch them and I'm not involved hehe)...
There' s also what we call I.S. (Internship Syndrome). A lot of interns get afflicted with this one. Those who were in a relationship prior to internship are prone to this one. LOL... Since we spend time with new people together in the same house and we all work together in the same hospital, it's inevitable that you get close to someone and in turn, the other half gets to know about this (since it's just a small world), and tadaaahhhh... expected break-ups.
Oh well, I have a LOT to say about this chapter, for ten months and being rotated to ten hospitals, I made a lot of friends that I never lost touch with (thanks to Friendster and Globe... and ok... thank you Smart haha). So why am I writing about this? I happen to clean stuff (a.k.a. clutter) in my room and saw this paper.
*This is what I call spontaneous outburst of non-sense stuff haha... Back in the day when I was still an intern, I had the chance to meet a bunch of wonderful people when I was assigned in San Leonardo, Nueva Ecija. Since there were rooms designated for interns in the hospital itself, there were lots of bonding moments with them. One of those times when we were so bored that I just got this yellow paper and started to scribble what I had in mind. My supervisor saw this (man, hope you're reading this) and responded. He handed it over to me and I decided to write the third paragraph. He got it back and wrote again. Hahahahaha... I have posted it below, unedited, so excuse the grammar and stuff. When I finally wrote the last paragraph, I told him not to write anything anymore. Wehehehehe... Read on... By the way, this was written on September 1998. Now don't you ever dare count how old I am now.
When will you ever notice that I love you?
I loved you since the first time I saw you
and I love you even more now.
Perhaps the happiest moment of my life
will be in knowing that you care for me too...
Please don't think that I don't care for you
For just like you, I loved you since we first met.
I long to tell you how I feel
but I cannot find the courage to do so.
Perhaps it is because I don't know how you felt for me
and I was afraid that I will lose you
if I told you that I love you.
But now I know, and now I have the courage to ask you
will you accept this love I have for you
and love me in return?
To know that you love me
is the happiest feeling I've ever known.
I've wished for it, I yearned for it.
I've cherished every moment I've spoken of you.
There was never a time I haven't thought about you.
There was never a time I lost this love.
I took care of this feeling,
I set my mind on loving you.
The love I have has no boundaries,
never even asking for you to reciprocate the way I feel for you.
That is why I'm so glad to know you feel the same...
That is why I treasure every word you said.
And the best thing to do is for me to acknowledge your love
and to keep you in my heart.
To love you deeply is a vow that I offer you...
But how deserving are you?
You ask how much I deserve the love that you give
I tell you in all honesty, I do not know
for it is only you who can answer all these questions
and all these fears that you have.
But this pledge I will give to you...
I shall love you with all my heart,
and with all my soul,
and should there come a time
when I shall have to give my life
for this love to survive,
then, so shall it be.
Should your life be a measure
of how much you deserve me?
If that is so, then death will just be a bottomless pit,
A never-ending struggle An endless fight
Why so?
Because if I'd lose you for the love we have,
You will take my heart with you,
I'd continue living in this paradise
struggling for I lost the Adam of my heart.
Words could not express how happy you made me.
I can never find the words
to say about this joy that I have.
I thank the gods for this treasure that I have found,
For this light that shines on me,
and for the single most important gem
that makes me value life more than life itself...
You and the love that we share...
Love is such a magical thing...
Never have I ever though about falling for you
Much more thinking if you could ever love me just the same.
But you're here.
You found me.
Never have I ever thought I'd find someone
who would choose to lose his life
for the love he has for me.
But you're here.
I found you.
I will always choose to be lost in this world of chaos,
if being lost will mean
leading me to find someone like you,
if being lost would mean finding you.
And yes, we're here.
We found each other.
To my former co-interns, PT staff and CI's ---->>>> i miss guys so much!!!!!
