My Year Ender

This year has been one of the wildest rollercoasters I've ever rode. I can say that I have experienced all emotions possible. I was loved, betrayed, misunderstood, humiliated, praised, taken back, cared for, hugged, kissed. Full-of-surprises.Mastered the art of letting go and the art of holding on. Been to places. Failed. Succeeded. This year, I realized that...

...after a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. You learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises. You learn that loving doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't always mean security, and you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.

...after a while you learn to build all your dreams on today because tomorrows ground is too uncertain for dreams, and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

...after a while you learn to accept your defeats with your head held with the grace of a woman and not the grief of a child.

...after a while you learn to plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone else to bring you flowers.

and you learn that you really are strong, that you really do have self worth, and you can endure, and you learn and learn, with every "goodbye" you learn.

With all of these in mind, I'm excited and am so ready for 2008. ;-p

Windshields on a Rainy Day

They say that in order to forget, you must bury the past. Let it wither in time. Let it fly to nowhere. Let it slip like a balloon til it disappears in the sky. Let it spin endlessly until it diminishes into nothing. Just let it.

But when someone you love is taken away and you never had the time to say everything you want to say, that's the time that I won't forget. I can't just bury the past. I can't just let it wither in time. I can't just let it fly. I can't just let go of the balloon. I can't just let it spin. My friend, Nardy, the ever-so-jolly Nardy passed away and going to his wake, joining his burial march to the church, hearing mass while he lays down in a coffin, walking our way towards the cemetery to bid farewell to him..these things never occured to me..these things never even crossed my mind.. But it happened and this is one of the SADDEST points of my life. We never even had the time to say what we want to say and make sure that he heard us. We thought he will always be there. We thought he would get well. I was literally blinded by tears. What moved me more was when we had to say our final goodbyes and all we could say to him was THANK YOU. No one uttered the words "Why did you leave us?" Everyone of us was thanking him. He made a significant impact in each of our lives. I can only attest to all the good things he has done for me.

This is the first time I had regrets. The thing is, we will never know until it's too late. No one can turn back the hands of time. I should've hugged him everytime I see him, thanking him for the friendship and letting him know that I appreciate his presence in my life.

He will be missed. Cherished. Remembered. Treasured. We may not understand why this happened now but I know in time, we will. God is now wrapping his arms around him and we know he is safe wherever he is.

This one I got from Nardy's blog entry dated Sept 1, 2007 entitled "One piece...tribute". Read on:

Ah, as I look beyond the endless sky,
I begin to imagine a tomorrow that I’ll have someday,

There were days when I feel like I’d lose to myself,
But there was a warm place I could always go,

People I could be proud of were always there,
Placing hands upon my back and pushing me onwards,

Ah, the stars are streaming down beneath the sky,

This only happens once…

I began my search,
With a blast of water,
Toward a boundless, everlasting world,
With this overflowing passion in my chest,

I’ll go anywhere.

Seeking the light I’ve never seen.

When the summer-colored sun shakes the sail of my heart,
It’s a sign the door to a new world has opened,
Swaying between the waves, I can escape despair,
For the horizon on the other side…

Is what I aim for!

Even if we’re apart,
I hope you’ll always remember,
That on days you are crying,
You’ll always have someone here to share your pain with,
Who will never yield; will not let our distant thought end as dreams,

The shining of the eternity everyone seeks

Will be in our hands

I spread a bit of courage, and caught a glimpse of the fail to tomorrow:

At first, we all drew our own horizons;
But now, we can gaze through the same spyglass:
Your heart stirred the salty compass of destiny,
So I’ll take the helm with a backhand grip.

We may cast off our agonies and our pasts, but we’ll still be smiling.
If those tears help our dreams come true, we won’t regret them.
We’ve caught a glimpse of the fail to tomorrow.

I’ve always been stuck in a dead run.

A to Z run on through,
Sometimes I worry, waiting in agony,

But just

When you’re lonely, let me hear your voices.
While you wander, you gaze up at the sky.

Like the moon, you forget to wink…

… and fade quietly as your deep reflection wares.

Leave things just as they are, and let me ride your words.

Keep your dreams through your thousands of nights, wandering travelers.

Ah, and even if you can never return…

… you’ll keep on walking forward.

One Black Morning

You and I will meet again
When we're least expecting it
One day in some far off place
I will recognize your face
I won't say goodbye my friend
For you and I will meet again
~Tom Petty








... this right here (tell me why)
Goes out, to everyone, that has lost someone
That they truly loved (c'mon, check it out)

Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin on the block for dough
Notorious, they got to know that
Life ain't always what it seem to be
Words can't express what you mean to me
Even though you're gone, we're still a team
Through your family, I'll fulfill your dream
In the future, can't wait to see
If you'll open up the gates for me
Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it's real, feelings hard to conceal
Can't imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still living your life, after death

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you

It's kinda hard with you not around
Know you in heaven smilin down
Watchin us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Til the day we meet again
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts Big I just can't define
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the six, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Makin hits, stages they receive you on
Still can't believe you're gone
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still living your life, after death

Somebody tell me why

One black morning
When this life is over
I know
I'll see your face

Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
Every night I pray, every step I take
[Puff] Every day that passes
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] Is a day that I get closer
[Puff] To seeing you again
Every night I pray, every step I take
[Puff] We miss you Big... and we won't stop
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] Cause we can't stop... that's right
Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] We miss you Big

Art Cakes!

Cake is love. This is something I will never say NO to. Ever. My mom used to bake cakes when I was a kid. I remember coming home to very yummmyyyy cakes after school. Up to now, amidst the age of South Beach and Atkins diet, cakes remain to be one of the sweetest sins that we have yet to avoid.

Baking for me, is an art. Anything done tastefully catches my attention. I'm particular with details. This is the reason why Art Cakes literally grabbed my wandering attention everytime I'm window-shopping. The cakes look oh-so-heavenly! You can order/customize your type of cake. More details, more pricey. But hey, if I'm the one making this cake, I will charge you a million for the effort :teehee: Given that it looks good to the eye, it also tastes good! Just... perfect! All you need to worry about are the calories you need to burn after consuming it. Truth is, you wouldn't want to eat such beautiful creation. So don't forget to grab your cam to keep the memories and to take a photo of your cake before swallowing it whole. Haha.

The cake you see here is smaller than a shoebox. I love the colors. I rarely see blue cakes. Since the day I bought this one, I've been their regular monster. =)

They have Grab and Go as well as Made-to-Order cakes. Check their cutesy webbie for more info =)

http://artcakes.com.ph

5 Sweet Kalachuchis!!!

Turning Korean

I've been a long-time YouTube fan. I started looking for cutie dog videos, spoof commercials, movie trailers, tv/movie clips, tv shows, events, home-made videos, funny japanese games, anime, proposals and just about anything under the sun. Lately, I've been engrossed with anything asian. I watch funny japanese games and yes, talent shows. One show that captured my attention was Star King, a Korean variety show. Great talents, exceptional and unique talents. Only problem is that I can't understand what they're saying. Haha.. But the latest and uber famous YT video now features a Filipina, 14 yr-old, Charise Pempengco. . For that person who subbed her Star King videos, she owes him/her a lot for the exposure! Let her do the talking... rather singing.. Click on PLAY ;-p

AWESOME RIGHT??? YouTube can do wonders for just about anyone and one proof is that my favorite Ellen DeGeneres saw the video on YouTube and now wants to guest her on her show Ellen! I so love the Ellen show and I still watch it on cable. Can't wait to see a Filipino guest on her show. Would you believe Ellen personally called her up? Talk about luck. How about Oprah next time? =)

She failed before when she joined local shows here. It just goes to show that when you fail, when you experience rejection, when you lose something that you want.. it's not always what it seems.. better and greater things will come your way. Go kid. Make Filipinos proud. =)

Memories ala Coconut Stars

**Coconut Stars (Istar-Buko)

After spending bucks, treating out friends, extorting my officemates... I now have my Starbucks Journal for 2008! Nice journ to keep the memories that will come my way next year. =)

This journ is oh so cute! It came with a Starbucks pencil hehe.. I know some people here on Multiply are selling this journ for PhP1,200 quite cheap compared to the amount of money I'm gonna shell out just to complete all 24 stickers. But there's nothing like the thrill of extorting your friends to buy coffee (bwahahaha). Good thing too, that they had this 3 day promo (or was it a 4-day promo) wherein you can double the sticker once you order one beverage.

Gonna make a lotta memories next year. =)

"No matter how long we exist, we have our memories. Points in time which time itself cannot erase. Suffering may distort my backward glances, but even to suffering, some memories will yield nothing of ther beauty or their splendor. Rather they remain as hard as gems.'"

ANNE RICE, Blood and Gold

Hardest Question

This is not my original. This is from my friend Cze, I love the way this was written. Just edited some parts. As simple as it is, it is an expression of one's feelings and that being asked by someone why he is being loved... there are just no exact words to answer that. Why he is being singled out from the rest. "Why do you love me?" is one of the most hardest questions that has no definitive answer. Loving someone is like looking at a multitude of stars.. try gazing at just one star..all the others will just fade away. Read on...

Why do I love you and not him, and him, and another him? Well, I can’t bring myself to love them; I can’t bring myself to even try. I had experiences with other hims and what I have with you now is simply different. Way different.

Why do I love you? Loving you has no reasons. I just simply do. And that’s just one difference between loving you and loving them hims: loving them has to have reasons because otherwise there’s no point in loving them at all.

I love you not because you love me back. There are others who love me, others who would be willing to love me, others who would care for me. But I don’t need them—it’s you I need. Your warmth, understanding, acceptance, affection, beauty, temperament, mood swings, and flaws—I need all that. I need you.

It is only when I’m with you that I am most secure and comfortable. I can be anyone and anything when I’m with you. You accept the whole of me and you understand my shortcomings. Whether I succeed or fail, I know you’ll be beside me.

You let me grow as a person. I tend to let my world revolve around you and only you sometimes, as if there’s no one else in this world but the two of us. You know that this isn’t healthy and that we have to have space for personal growth and time for ourselves. A stable relationship calls for stable individuals; and for our relationship to blossom and last for a long time, we both have to continue to develop and to mature together and individually.

Most importantly, while we are lovers, we are also best friends. After a tiring day, it would be nice to just talk to you—telling anecdotes, exchanging views, catching up on the going ons of each other’s lives. When all is said and done, you are not only my best friend, you are also my shock-absorber, my angel, my teddybear, my adviser, my inspiration, my motivation—my everything.

So understand that there are no reasons why I love you. I just do.

Top 25 Movie Quotes

#25: "You've got a real purdy mouth."--mountain hick, Deliverance (1972).

#24: "Loretta, I love you. Not like they told you love is, and I didn't know this either, love don't make things nice--it ruins everything. It breaks your heart. It makes things a mess. We aren't here to make things perfect. The snowflakes are perfect. The stars are perfect. Not us. Not us! We are here to ruin ourselves and to break our hearts and love the wrong people and die...Now I want you to come upstairs with me and get in my bed!"--Ronny Cammareri (Nicolas Cage), Moonstruck (1987).

#23: "It seems right now that all I've ever done in my life is making my way here to you."--Robert Kincaid (Clint Eastwood), The Bridges of Madison County (1995).

#22: "Michael...I've loved you for nine years, I've just been too arrogant and scared to realize it, and... well, now I'm just scared. So, I realize this comes at a very inopportune time but I really have this gigantic favor to ask of you. Choose me. Marry me. Let me make you happy. Oh, that sounds like three favors, doesn't it?"--Julianne Potter (Julia Roberts), My Best Friend's Wedding (1997).

#21: "Love is too weak a word for what I feel--I luuurve you, you know, I loave you, I luff you, two F's, yes I have to invent, of course I do, don't you think I do?"--Alvy Singer (Woody Allen), Annie Hall (1977).

#20: "If there's any kind of magic in this world, it must be in the attempt of understanding someone, sharing something. I know, it's almost impossible to succeed, but...who cares, really? The answer must be in the attempt."--Celine (Julie Delpy), Before Sunrise (1995).

#19: "Miss Kubelik, one doesn't get to be a second administrative assistant around here unless he's a pretty good judge of character, and as far as I'm concerned you're tops. I mean, decency-wise and otherwise-wise."--C.C Baxter (Jack Lemmon), The Apartment (1960).

#18: "I'm going to stop right now. Except that I would give anything if you were two people, so that I could call up the one who's my friend and tell her about the one that I like so much!"--Aaron Altman (Albert Brooks), Broadcast News (1987).

#17: "…I'd ask you about love, you'd probably quote me a sonnet. But you've never looked at a woman and been totally vulnerable. Known someone that could level you with her eyes, feeling like God put an angel on earth just for you. Who could rescue you from the depths of hell. And you wouldn't know what it's like to be her angel, to have that love for her, be there forever, through anything…"--Sean Maguire (Robin Williams), Good Will Hunting (1997).

#16: "A beautiful girl can make you dizzy, like you've been drinking Jack and Coke all morning. She can make you feel high full of the single greatest commodity known to man--promise. Promise of a better day. Promise of a greater hope. Promise of a new tomorrow. This particular aura can be found in the gait of a beautiful girl. In her smile, in her soul, the way she makes every rotten little thing about life seem like it's going to be okay..."--Paul (Michael Rapaport), Beautiful Girls (1996).

#15: "What I really want to do with my life--what I want to do for a living--is I want to be with your daughter. I'm good at it."--Lloyd Dobbler (John Cusack), Say Anything (1989).

#14: "Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in."--Ricky Fitts (Wes Bentley), American Beauty (1999).

#13: "I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it."--Seth (Nicolas Cage), City of Angels (1998).

#12: "I know you think we can't be together, but can't you respect me enough to let me make my own decision? I know there'll be risks but I want to face them with you. It's wrong that we should be only half alive... half of ourselves. I love you. So here I am--standing in your doorway. I have always been standing in your doorway. Isn't it about time somebody saved your life?"--Mary Jane Watson (Kirsten Dunst), Spider-Man 2 (2004).

#11: "…I might be the only one who appreciates how amazing you are in every single thing that you do, and…how you say what you mean, and how you almost always mean something that's all about being straight and good. I think most people miss that about you, and I watch them, wondering how they can watch you bring their food, and clear their tables and never get that they just met the greatest woman alive. And the fact that I get it makes me feel good, about me."--Melvin Udall (Jack Nicholson), As Good As It Gets (1997).

#10: "Ehm, look. Sorry, sorry. I just, well, this is a very stupid question and..., particularly in view of our recent shopping excursion, but I just wondered, by any chance, eh, I mean obviously not because I've only slept with nine people, but-but I-I just wondered... eh…I really feel, in short, to recap it slightly in a clearer version, ehh, the words of David Cassidy in fact, while he was still with the Partridge family, um, "I think I love you," and I-I just wondered by any chance you wouldn't like to... Eh... Eh... No, no, no of course not... I'm an idiot, he's not... Excellent, excellent, fantastic, eh, I was gonna say lovely to see you, sorry to disturb... Better get on..."--Charles (Hugh Grant), Four Weddings and a Funeral (1994).

#9: "…You stay alive, no matter what occurs! I will find you. No matter how long it takes, no matter how far, I will find you."--Hawkeye (Daniel Day-Lewis), The Last of the Mohicans (1992).

#8: "Winning that ticket, Rose, was the best thing that ever happened to me... it brought me to you. And I'm thankful for that, Rose. I'm thankful. You must do me this honor, Rose. Promise me you'll survive. That you won't give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise."--Jack Dawson (Leonardo DiCaprio), Titanic (1997).

#7: "You know you don't have to act with me, Steve. You don't have to say anything, and you don't have to do anything. Not a thing. Oh, maybe just whistle. You know how to whistle, don't you, Steve? You just put your lips together and... blow."--Slim (Lauren Bacall), To Have and Have Not (1944).

#6: "I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible."--Harry Burns (Billy Crystal), When Harry Met Sally (1989).

#5: "It was a million tiny little things that, when you added them all up, they meant we were suppose to be together... and I knew it. I knew it the very first time I touched her. It was like coming home... only to no home I'd ever known... I was just taking her hand to help her out of a car and I knew. It was like... magic.--Sam Baldwin (Tom Hanks), Sleepless in Seattle (1993).

#4: "No, I don't think I will kiss you, although you need kissing, badly. That's what's wrong with you. You should be kissed and often, and by someone who knows how."--Rhett Butler (Clark Gable), Gone With the Wind (1939).

#3: "We'll always have Paris."--Rick Blaine (Humphrey Bogart), Casablanca (1942).

#2: "Love means never having to say you're sorry."--Oliver Barrett (Ryan O'Neal), Love Story (1970).

And the No. 1 most romantic line…

#1: "You... complete me."--Jerry Maguire (Tom Cruise), Jerry Maguire(1996).

pahabol....

"Any man, anytime, has the chance to sweep a woman off her feet. He just needs the right broom."--Alex "Hitch" Hitchens (Will Smith), Hitch.

Angels Brought Me Here

"The ultimate wedding song. I first heard this song while watching American Idol. Forgot about it. Then finally discovered how beautiful the lyrics were when my friend Mabel kept on playing this song in the office. I'd like this to be my wedding song =).. I prefer a children's choir to render this song and they'll be wearing angel costumes. Little angels will also escort me as I walk down the aisle. Nice nice.."


It's been a long and winding journey, but i'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces, walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory, where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling, when i look into your eyes...

My dreams came true, when i found you
I found you, my miracle...

If you could see, what i see, that you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Standing here before you, feels like i've been born again
Every breath is your love, every heartbeat speaks your name...

My dreams came true, right here in front of you
My miracle...

If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Brought me here to be with you,
I'll be forever grateful (oh forever Faithful)
My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle...

If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...
Yes they brought me here...
If you could feel, the tenderness i feel...
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Through Heaven's Eyes

"This is my favorite song from the movie Prince of Egypt. When I feel down, I just read the lyrics and my day just brightens up! No one can ever judge our lives. As the song goes, we should look at our lives through heaven's eyes. And for those who don't feel like reading the bible, just watch this movie".

A single thread in a tapestry-
Though its color brightly shine-
Can never see its purpose
In the pattern of the grand design.

And the stone that sits on the very top
Of the mountain's mighty face-
Does it think it's more important
Than the stones that form the base?

So how can you see what your life is worth
Or where your value lies?
You can never see through the eyes of man
You must look at your life,
Look at your life through heaven's eyes.
Lai-la-lai...

A lake of gold in the desert sand
Is less than a cool fresh spring-
And to one lost sheep, a shepherd boy
Is greater than the richest king.
If a man lose ev'rything he owns,
Has he truly lost his worth?
Or is it the beginning
Of a new and brighter birth?

So how do you measure the worth of a man-
In wealth or strength or size?
In how much he gained or how much he gave?
The answer will come,
The answer will come to him who tries
To look at his life through heaven's eyes.

And that's why we share all we have with you,
Though there's little to be found.
When all you've got is nothing,
There's a lot to go around.

No life can escape being blown about
By the winds of change and chance,

And though you never know all the steps,
You must learn to join the dance-
You must learn to join the dance.

Lai-la-lai...

So how do you judge what a man is worth?
By what he builds or buys?

You can never see with your eyes on earth-
Look through heaven's eyes.
Look at your life,
Look at your life,
Look at your life through heaven's eyes!