They say that in order to forget, you must bury the past. Let it wither in time. Let it fly to nowhere. Let it slip like a balloon til it disappears in the sky. Let it spin endlessly until it diminishes into nothing. Just let it.
But when someone you love is taken away and you never had the time to say everything you want to say, that's the time that I won't forget. I can't just bury the past. I can't just let it wither in time. I can't just let it fly. I can't just let go of the balloon. I can't just let it spin. My friend, Nardy, the ever-so-jolly Nardy passed away and going to his wake, joining his burial march to the church, hearing mass while he lays down in a coffin, walking our way towards the cemetery to bid farewell to him..these things never occured to me..these things never even crossed my mind.. But it happened and this is one of the SADDEST points of my life. We never even had the time to say what we want to say and make sure that he heard us. We thought he will always be there. We thought he would get well. I was literally blinded by tears. What moved me more was when we had to say our final goodbyes and all we could say to him was THANK YOU. No one uttered the words "Why did you leave us?" Everyone of us was thanking him. He made a significant impact in each of our lives. I can only attest to all the good things he has done for me.
This is the first time I had regrets. The thing is, we will never know until it's too late. No one can turn back the hands of time. I should've hugged him everytime I see him, thanking him for the friendship and letting him know that I appreciate his presence in my life.
He will be missed. Cherished. Remembered. Treasured. We may not understand why this happened now but I know in time, we will. God is now wrapping his arms around him and we know he is safe wherever he is.
This one I got from Nardy's blog entry dated Sept 1, 2007 entitled "One piece...tribute". Read on:
Ah, as I look beyond the endless sky,
I begin to imagine a tomorrow that I’ll have someday,
There were days when I feel like I’d lose to myself,
But there was a warm place I could always go,
People I could be proud of were always there,
Placing hands upon my back and pushing me onwards,
Ah, the stars are streaming down beneath the sky,
This only happens once…
I began my search,
With a blast of water,
Toward a boundless, everlasting world,
With this overflowing passion in my chest,
I’ll go anywhere.
Seeking the light I’ve never seen.
When the summer-colored sun shakes the sail of my heart,
It’s a sign the door to a new world has opened,
Swaying between the waves, I can escape despair,
For the horizon on the other side…
Is what I aim for!
Even if we’re apart,
I hope you’ll always remember,
That on days you are crying,
You’ll always have someone here to share your pain with,
Who will never yield; will not let our distant thought end as dreams,
The shining of the eternity everyone seeks
Will be in our hands
I spread a bit of courage, and caught a glimpse of the fail to tomorrow:
At first, we all drew our own horizons;
But now, we can gaze through the same spyglass:
Your heart stirred the salty compass of destiny,
So I’ll take the helm with a backhand grip.
We may cast off our agonies and our pasts, but we’ll still be smiling.
If those tears help our dreams come true, we won’t regret them.
We’ve caught a glimpse of the fail to tomorrow.
I’ve always been stuck in a dead run.
A to Z run on through,
Sometimes I worry, waiting in agony,
But just
When you’re lonely, let me hear your voices.
While you wander, you gaze up at the sky.
Like the moon, you forget to wink…
… and fade quietly as your deep reflection wares.
Leave things just as they are, and let me ride your words.
Keep your dreams through your thousands of nights, wandering travelers.
Ah, and even if you can never return…
… you’ll keep on walking forward.
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