10 things I sooooo hate about YOU

i hate you for making me fall so deep
i hate it when it's too early and you say goodnight
i hate the way that you've always been there for me
i hate it when i can't hug you tight

i hate the way you put a smile on my face
i hate it that you have stolen my heart
i hate that you drifted without a trace
i hate the thought of seeing us apart

i hate it when i miss you
i hate the way that im pretending to hate you..


I wrote the poem above having these thoughts in mind:

> I no longer care if I fall so DEEP coz i know you'll catch me
> Saying goodnight means you always wake up early and your greeting always puts a WIDE SMILE on my face even when i'm so damn tired
> You've always been there for me. You're the MOST CONSTANT person in my life. For no apparent reason.
> I can't hug you tight. I want to hug you TIGHTER.

> When you put this SMILE on my face, I don't know how will I ever frown.
> My heart is mine but you have STOLEN it.
> You drifted away. You let yourself drift BACK to me.
> The thought of us apart is like SUNSET at 5AM. Impossible.

> Missing you is like sucking the oxygen OUT of me. Little by little.

I love the way YOU love me.

You have STOLEN my Heart

Don't you just love the feeling when someone makes you happy??

A kid easily puts a smile on my face.
When I see dogs, my day brightens up.
When things turn up the way I want them to be, I feel contented.
An elderly couple walking hand in hand warms my heart.

There are tons of things that makes me smile...makes me happy.

When I was a kid, dancing in the rain brings so much joy.
A cup of my favorite ice cream makes me smile from ear to ear.

The list goes on...

A stranger opening the door for me..
Someone standing up to offer his seat..
When there's no line at the grocery store..
A compliment..
Flowers...
Chocolates...
An approved leave..
When there's no traffic..
Sunrise...
Pepperoni pizza..
coffee...
lazy sunday mornings...
calling up an old friend..
being the only one with the right answer..
winning..
playing the guitar or piano..
lighting candles..
taking pictures...
painting my toenails..
singing at the top of my voice..
traveling..
getting a massage..
looking at the stars..
making someone smile..
an answered prayer..
being with friends..
playing with little kids..
a cold glass of chocolate milk..
dark chocolate..
wearing pajamas..
shopping after payday..
seeing an old friend..
waking up early and knowing i can stay a little longer in bed..
lipstick that doesn't smudge..
smelling my fave perfume..
a comment or testimonial..
family...
driving..
watching movies late at night..
listening to the birds as they chirp..
road trip with no destination..

This list can go on and on. This is endless. I'd run out of words and space if I write them all.

One thing is certain though. That if you add up all of what I can feel, it sure would let you know how HAPPY i am now. I feel like a kid. I feel like a high school girl falling in love again. I feel like I'm eating cotton candy and I'm floating upwards to the sky. Everything makes me smile. Even killing a cockroach now will still make me smile. I wanna hug everyone!

WHY am I happy?

There's only one person who made me feel this way. I've felt it before the first time we met and that was ages ago. Now, I still feel the same as if I just met him yesterday.

I thought I own myself. I thought I own my heart.

But he stole it.

=)

Shoes, chipping nail polish at ang misplaced anklet

I was browsing through my MSN folders to check what mails I have to trash or keep and I couldn't believe that I have tons of unread mails pa coz I'm soooo pre-occupied siguro that when I receive what I think is just spam, I move it to another folder na lang so I can read it if I have the time na.

I have chosen some which I think made sense or made me utter the five-letter word (Awwww....) that I can share with you guys. =)

This one came from my friend Gwayzie and I don't know where she got this but this shows a simple take or realization about love and how you should deal with it. I received this June 16, 2005. Tagal na!!! hehe Read on.

The overused shoes

When I went to Davao for Christmas vacation in 2001, I found what I think was the best shoes I've ever had. It was a blue and white slip-ons with a flower on its strap. Margay ang tatak niya. Ang tagal ko na naghanap ng blue na kikay slip-ons at doon ko lang sa Gaisano Davao nahanap iyun. And I bought the shoes for 500 lang! Feeling ko pa, suwerte ako dahil last pair na iyun. And it was my size!

Sobrang natuwa ako sa kikay kong sapatos. At napakalambot niya! I wore the shoes everyday because they would match anything... denim, slacks, capri pants, skirt, dress. Gamit ko siya in the office, at the mall, in church, even at the beach!

Dahil araw-araw ko siyang nagamit, at nasuot ko na siya sa kung saan, it was expected na wala pang isang taon ay sira na siya. Sabi ko, okay lang. May Margay naman sa Robinsons saka sa Landmark, siguro naman may ganoong style pa sila. Ngunit napuntahan ko na lahat ng display ng Margay pero wala akong nakitang katulad nang nabili ko sa Davao.

Nakadalawang uwi na ako sa Davao at pumupunta ako sa Gaisano, umaasang may makikita akong ganoon klaseng sapatos. Hindi na nga ako naghahangad ng eksaktong ganoon eh. Kahit na kamukha lang o kasing-lambot lang, okay na. Kaso wala.

Iyong kikay blue Margay na slip-ons ko -- na malambot at may naka-angat na bulaklak sa strap, na bagay sa kahit anong damit ko -- ay sira na ngayon. Hindi lang siya sira, nangingitim na sa dumi, at hindi na kayang i-glue ang punit na talampakan. Pero hindi ko pa siya maitapon-tapon.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Alam ko hindi ko na siya maisusuot uli, pero may reminder naman ako na once upon a time, I had a perfect pair of shoes. Hindi ko nga lang inalagaan.

Lesson learned:

Kapag nahanap mo na ang bagay o tao na sa tingin mo ay perfect na para sa iyo, ingatan at alagaan mo. Huwag mong abusuhin. Kapag nawala sila, baka wala ka nang mahahanap na kapalit. At habambuhay mo na lang iisipin na "sana, inalaagaan ko siya."

The "maganda siya pero masakit" shoes

May fini-fit ako noon na sapatos sa Celine. Okay lang ang presyo. Maganda ang material. Kikay ang hitsura. At kapag suot ko, nakaka-sexy ng paa. May isang problema nga lang... masakit sa paa.

Pero cutie kasi siya eh. Saka on sale. At sadyang matigas ang ulo ko. Kaya ayun, binili ko.

Sa umpisa, okay lang naman. Keri ko. Saka masakit naman talaga sa paa ang bagong sapatos. Pero habang lumilipas ang oras, lalong sumasakit. Hindi siya meant sa pangmatagalang suot. Habang suot ko siya, parang gusto kong umiyak sa tuwing humahakbang ako. Pagdating ko ng bahay, puro sugat at galos ang paa ko. At ilang linggo din akong may peklat sa paa dahil sa diyaskeng sapatos na iyun.

Kapag sa umpisa pa lang, alam mo na masakit na sa paa at hindi mo puwedeng suotin ng matagalan, huwag mo nang bilhin. Bakit mo pa itutuloy kung alam mong masasaktan ka lamang kapag sinuot mo?

Parang pakikipag-relasyon din iyan eh. May mga lalake na good on paper, bagay sa iyo, tipo mo nga eh. Ang kaso, panandalian lang siya. "Boylet" lang kasi unavailable siya. Bakit mo pa itutuloy kong alam mong eventually ay masasaktan ka lang? Sana, habang maaga pa, iwasan mo na.

Lesson learned:

Kung sa umpisa pa lang, alam mo na masasaktan ka lamang sa bandang huli, huwag mo nang ituloy. Baka mag-iwan pa iyan ng scar na hindi mo na maaaalis kailan man.

The shoes that got away

May nakita akong magandang sandals sa Landmark. Mura lang, less than 500 lang siguro. Kakaiba din siya kasi hindi siya iyong style na makikita mo sa babaeng katabi mo sa MRT. Black and white siya. Polka dots ang strap niya pero hindi cheap ang dating. Ang kikay nga eh. tapos, two inches iyong heels niya. Sinukat ko minsan, ang ganda sa paa!

Kaya lang, hindi ko siya binili. Kasi, kakaiba siya eh. Mahirap hanapan ng ka-match na damit at bag. Saka kakabili ko lang kasi ng isang sandals kaya sabi ko, next pay day ko na lang bibilhin ang polka dots na sapatos na yun.

Madalas akong dumaan sa Landmark at nakikita ko ang sapatos na gusto ko bilhin pero hindi ko mabili-bili. Ilang pay day na ang dumaan pero hindi ko pa rin siya kinukuha para iuwi. Hanggang sa dumating ang oras na kailangan ko ng isang kikay na sandals na may print. Naisip ko agad ang polka-dots na matagal ko na gusto bilihin. Pero pag-punta ko sa Landmark, wala na siya doon. Naubos na. Ang ending, napabili ako ng ibang printed na sapatos na hindi ko naman talaga gusto pero wala akong choice kasi kailangan ko na nga.

Lesson learned:

Kung magpapaligaya sa atin ang isang bagay, seize the day! Sa kaka-delay, baka mawala lang sa atin ito at mauuwi tayong nagse-settle sa hindi naman talaga natin gusto. Mas mahirap pagsisihan ang mga bagay na hindi mo ginawa. Wala na yatang mas masakit pa sa thought na abot-kamay mo na lang, pero pinalampas mo pa.

The chipping nail polish

Nagta-type ako sa keyboard nang mapansin ko na nagsisimula nang mag-peel yung nail polish sa kuko ko. Kaagad akong naglagay ng top coat. Nabasa ko kasi sa Cosmo na iyong top coat, nagpapatagal ng kulay ng nail polish. At nagpe-prevent na mag-chip iyong kuko.

Pero noong sumunod na araw, lalong lumala iyong pag-peel ng nail polish. Medyo nalungkot ako. Kasi, wala nang makakapigil pa sa pagkakasira ng kulay ng kuko ko.

Pero kung iisipin natin, ang nail polish, parang life lang yan. No matter how hard we try to make it last or stay longer, we couldn't stop the inevitable. Lahat ng bagay, nag-de- the end. Hindi mo na kayang pigilan ang nakatadhana. May mga relasyon na hindi nagtatagal. May mga pagmamahal na namamatay. Kahit na tambakan mo man ng top coat ang kuko mo, kahit anong ingat mo man, matatanggal at matatanggal pa rin ang nail polish. Kaya burahin mo na lang at ihanda ang mga kuko sa bagong nail polish na i-a-apply mo. Kailangan mo mag-move on. At magsimulang muli.

Pero dapat, bago ka mag-apply ng bagong nail polish, siguraduhin mo na wala ng trace ng lumang nail polish. Bago ka pumasok sa panibagong relasyon, dapat, completely over ka na doon sa dati. Para simula ka sa clean slate, di ba?

Lesson learned:

Huwag malungkot kung may isang bagay na natapos. Puwede ka pang magsimulang muli. At puwede kang sumubok ng mas magandang nail polish.

The perfect shoes

Kailangan ko bumili ng old rose na sapatos na babagay sa aking damit. A-attend kasi ako ng kasal ng kaibigan ko. Alam nating lahat kung gaano kahirap maghanap ng perfect na sapatos. Lalo na kung old rose ang kulay nito. Dalawang oras yata ako naglibot sa Glorietta para lang makahanap ng sapatos.

Hanggang nakakita ako sa Landmark. Hindi siya old rose kundi pink pero pagod na ako maghanap. At desperado na ako dahil malapit na silang mag-sarado. Kaya nagpasya ako na pagtiyagaan na lang kung ano iyong nandoon. Kahit hindi naman talaga iyon ang gusto kong bilhin. Puwede na iyan, naisip ko.

Noong hiningi ko ang size ko doon sa tindera, sinabi sa akin na hindi na sila nagtatanggap dahil sarado na sila.

Noong pauwi na ako, I realized that that experience was trying to tell me something. Maybe it wasn't meant to be. Maybe I shouldn't settle for anything less. Paano kung binili ko nga iyong pink na sapatos tapos may nakita akong old rose na sandals? Baka sinasabi sa akin ng tadhana na kailangan maging patient ako, at mag-hanap pa sa ibang mall para makita ang tamang sapatos.

Kinabukasan, nakahanap ako ng old rose na sandals sa Megamall. As in bagay doon sa damit ko. At nabili ko pa ng sale! Kung pinagtiyagaan ko iyong nasa Landmark, siguro hindi na ako naghanap sa ibang mall. At siguro, nagtitiis ako sa pink na sandals ganoong mayroon naman palang old rose.

Lesson learned:

Don't settle. Minsan, dahil sa pagod na tayong maghintay, o dahil sa desperado na tayo, pinagtitiyagaan na lang natin kung anong nandiyan. Parang wala na tayong ibang choice. Pero kung tutuusin, kung maghihintay lang tayo, at maging patient, darating din iyong para sa atin. At hindi lang sapatos ang tinutukoy ko. It could be the right guy or the right job or whatever.

The misplaced anklet

Noong binigyan ako ng kaibigan ko ng blue na anklet, sobrang na-excite ako kaya sinuot ko siya agad. Pero dahil lagi akong nakamaong, at hindi nakikita ang anklet ko, nag-decide ako na gamitin sya as bracelet. Maluwang sya, oo, pero keri na rin. Alam ko hindi iyon ang dapat nyang lugar, kaya nga siya anklet eh para sa ankle, di ba? Siguro, feeling ng anklet ko, misplaced sya... na hindi iyon ang dapat nyang kalagyan. Pero noong ginamit ko siya bilang bracelet, napansin siya ng mga tao. Ang dami nga nag-bigay ng compliment at sinabing ang ganda daw ng bracelet ko.

"Kaya lang, parang maluwang," sabi noong isa. Inamin ko na na anklet talaga iyon kaya maluwang.

Misplaced anklet nga siya. Pero at least nare-recognize naman siya. Kesa naman gamitin ko as anklet, walang makakapansin sa kanya.

Kinabukasan, ginamit ko siya uli. Noong tanghali, napansin ko na lang na wala na sa braso ko yung anklet.

"Nilayasan ka na ng anklet mo kasi hindi niya nakayanan na ginagawa mo siyang bracelet," sabi ng kaibigan ko.

Tinawanan ko lang siya. Pero napa-isip ako. Bakit ko ba kasi pinilit na gawing bracelet ang anklet? Parang pinipilit ko ang isang tao na umasta ng hindi naman natural sa kanya. Akala ko kasi, mas okay yun kasi nare-recognize siya, kahit na hindi naman talaga iyon ang purpose niya sa buhay.

Lesson learned:

Ang anklet ay para sa ankle, hindi sa wrist. Hindi mo puwedeng idikta sa ibang tao kung ano ang dapat nilang gawin, at kung saan sila pupuwesto. Kahit na sabihin mo na para sa ikabubuti nila ang ginagawa mo, kung hindi naman sila masaya, bale wala rin. Baka mawala lang sila sa iyo.

Sabi nila, ang mundo daw ay isang napakalaking classroom kung saan ka hinahainan ng sari-saring leksyon tungkol sa buhay. Ano kaya ang puwedeng matututunan sa walang kulay na lipstick? O sa anti-dandruff na shampoo? O sa plastic eyelash curler? O sa pekeng Prada wallet na binebenta sa bangketa? Ah, ewan... makapag-lagay na nga lang ng bagong nail polish.

~~anonymous~~

I'm Your Hero

Your Score: Peter Petrelli

You scored 58 Idealism, 70 Nonconformity, 29 Nerdiness

Do you ever... get the feeling that you were meant to do something extraordinary?Congratulations, you're Peter Petrelli! You are a compassionate, idealistic person, which is great. You're searching for your identity and purpose in life, and you have a strong desire to be special, and do something great for the world. You're a bit on the emo side, but you have the best of intentions. Your best quality: Empathy Your worst quality: EMO

Link: The Heroes Personality Test written by freedomdegrees on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

My All-Time Favorite Chanson

Pabili nga pong Colgate, yung Close Up ha?

You know you're Filipino if.....

>> You're related to everyone.

>> Your parents call each other "Mommy" and "Daddy".

>> You have uncles and aunts named Boy, Girlie or Baby.

>> You have relatives or friends with the letter "H" slipped into their names, as in Jhun, Bhoyet, Bheng and Sahmeeeh.

>> You have relatives whose nicknames consists of repeated syllables, such as Jun-Jun, Ling-Ling, Ning-Ning, Ai-Ai and Bong-Bong.

>> Your grandmother greets you by smelling your cheek.

>> You abide by your parents' house rules even if you're over 18.

>> You live with your parents - until - and at times even after - you're married.

>> Your house has a distinctive aroma.

>> You decorate your living room wall with your family's framed diplomas and certificates and plaques.

>> On your living room wall you display a shield bearing "The Weapons of Moroland" along side a GIANT wooden rosary and wooden tinikling dancers or Ifugao heads.

>> You decorate your dining room wall with a GIANT wooden spoon and fork and a picture of the Last Supper.

>> You keep your furniture wrapped in plastic.

>> You keep a Sto. Nino shrine in your living room.

>> You keep a statue of a big, laughing Buddha -- with those pesky little kids crawling all over him -- for good luck.

>> You recycle plastic shopping bags as garbage bags.

>> You own a Footsteps in the Sand poster.

>> You keep a "tabo" in your bathroom.

>> You own a barrel man.

>> You shower at least once a day.

>> You use a stone to scrub yourself in the shower.

>> You think a meal is not a meal without rice.

>> You use your fingers to measure the water you need to cook rice.

>> You don't need a knife to cut your food.

>> You feel compelled to greet anyone who sees you eating with the words "Let's Eat".

>> You feed ALL your visitors.

>> Your dining table has a merry-go-round (lazy susan) in the middle.

>> You bring BAON to work everyday.

>> You recycle bottles into water containers and store these in the fridge.

>> You wash and reuse disposable styrofoam cups, plastic spoons and forks, and aluminum wrappers.

>> You can't enjoy a meal without patis, toyo, vinegar, catsup or bagoong.

>> Your tablecloths are stained with toyo circles.You like sweet spaghetti.

>> You instinctively grab a toothpick after every meal.

>> You hang your left arm out the windowand wave your hand to signal a left turn.

>> You hang a rosary on your car's rear view mirror.

>> You drive a family jeep with your family name prominently written on the rear.

>> You tail an ambulance just to beat the traffic.

>> You keep your car sears covered in plastic.

>> You drive where there's SPACE, even if it means converting a two-lane street into a four-lane road.

>> There are at least 50 people on your Christmas gift list.

>> You unwrap christmas presents ever so carefully, so you can reuse the wrappers and bows for next year.

>> You collect items from airlines, hotels, and restaurants as souveniers.

>> You feel compelled to give pasalubong to all your friends and relatives each time you return from a trip.

>> You can't make a purchase without haggling.

>> You use paper foot outlines when buying shoes for friends and relatives.

>> You point with your lips.

>> You refer to toothpaste as "Colgate".

>> You ask for the bill at a restaurantby making a rectangle in the air.

>> You'll answer "Malapit lang!" -- no matter the distance -- when asled how far away a place is located.

>> You can use ambiguous words such as "kwan", "ano", "chorva" and yet be perfectly understood by other Pinoys.

>> You say "For a while" instead of "One moment please" or "Please hold".

>> You say "hand-carry" instead of "carry-on luggage".

>> You say "shades" instead of "sunglasses".

>> You say "for take out" instead of "to go".

>> You say "Cutex" instead of "nail polish".

>> You're always late.

>> You'd rather be caught dead than arrive at a party on time.

>> You can't throw anything away.

>> You say "maybe" or "i'll try" when actually you mean "NO".

>> There are always two to three slippers at your doorstep.

>> You never discuss the weather.

>> It makes you uncomfortable to be praised or flattered.

>> You respond to a "Hoy" or a "Pssst" in a crowd.



**Credits to Neni Sta. Romana-Cruz for compiling the above Pinoy psyche. =)

Pimp my Moto

Well. Congratulate me for customizing my own phone! weeee.... I had nothing to do this boring friday and I saw my phone in its lonesome. haha.. It's Motorola V3x, Cosmic Blue in color. Everything else is ok with this phone except that it's casing is matte-finished, making it scratch prone. It already had some little scratches here and there and I'm so annoyed it looks so panget that I scratched all the color off! What I did made my phone look more ugly.

So I scanned my stuff for things that I can use. My eyes landed on my belt made of beads with flowers and butterflies. Next thing I knew, I was already holding a pair of scissors and a glue gun on the other hand. Yup, I started to design my phone with it. I'm planning to stick with this phone and just change its look occasionally.